Friday, September 25, 2009

You say.... I only hear what i want to....

So this is officially my first post. I have a gagillion things to write about, but most of them immediately escaped my mind the moment I sat down to write. I'm really posting today only to kickstart myself into posting on a regular basis. I don't get to write much because I'm currently set up in Justin's workspace. I need a new home for my laptop, thus, a longer network cord since the built in wi-fi thingy is shot :] So.... here's to new things. That, my friends, is why I named this post the way I named it. I am a creature of habit. I like change, but only "controlled" change, specifically Bekah-controlled change. I find myself despising all things that are forced upon me, whether it's at the hand of people or circumstances or whatever. And I have been told on more than one occassion that I have a stubborn/ non-listening/ unwilling to change/ controlling personality. This very well may have been true. BUT..... that's all changing, and I'm stoked. Justin and I are smack dab in the middle of an uncomfortable spot. I say that with a smile on my face because it really does make me laugh. I am confident that the reason for our anxious squirming is because we are on the edge of something amazing unfolding around us. I am happy to be a part of it, and terrified, and excited, and just plain emotional about it. I often think of my life in movie quotes- one of many quirks. One of my favs, and definitely appropriate here is from Lord of the Rings. "Things have been set in motion that cannot be undone" or something like that :] There are all sorts of things being set into motion in our life- and I L-O-V-E love it. I love it because I am not in control- Jesus is. Big sigh of relief on that one, cause I tend to do nothing but make a mess of things. So, even though I've been known to only hear what I wanted to, I am being transformed. These days I hear things as they're spoken, specifically from the only One that I care to be listening to.

Three new things that are rockin' my world [as in... making me feel a little stretched out]:
1. This blog :]
2. quilting for my Etsy store (that totally needs to open asap)
3.a sense of purpose as one who leads others into worship (more to come on that one, i'm sure)

You have to understand that I'm coming out of a season full of questions- a season where I was constantly asking myself "Are we even where we're supposed to be right now?" It seems that just at the moment that I had decided that I couldn't be here anymore, like I desperately needed to get to the next spot- that's when Jesus said "Stay." and suddenly I don't need to leave anymore. Everything is falling into place and the sky is opening up and it is raining again :]


  1. just simply wonderful bekah, i can't wait for more-love ya

  2. It was just to the point and so straight forward! He is just that amazing!!! Enjoyed!!

  3. Bekah, I am so going to enjoy reading your blog. I seriously could hear you speaking as I read it. Thank you for blessing me with your writing, I am grateful! =]